February 2004

back to normality.

Normality being idiocy. We can start with the picture that Mike D. from Boston sent me. It kinda looks like him too. He told me that he hates me because whenever he takes a shower, he's going to think of me. I think that's just slightly creepy, but more funny, because the reason he thinks of me is because I've told him to pee on the shower walls whenever he goes to take a shower.

Yesterday night, I was hanging out with a bunch of people from my floor and this kid that didn't really know me too well. During the dinner time conversation, one of the people on my floor made a joke about Indians and looked at me and gave me a glance. I just said "stupid Indians," and continued to make fun of them. The kid that I didn't know thought I was Indian at first, but now doesn't think that. I'm Mexican to him, with some Spanish blood way down the line. Basically, I conquered myself and intermarried with the natives of the land I conquered, but some of my blood is still pure conquistador. Now that would be a pretty sweet way to describe oneself. At least way more sweet that saying that my blood was spun on a spinning wheel and it non-violently protests nutrients that invade the body.

Enough about that.

I had to write a chapter for my math book for today. It was a pretty annoying project in the first place, but because I cannot focus on school work, I decided to make a Krispy Kreme run and then play pool for two hours. Basically, I didn't start my work until 2 AM. And at about 4 or so, I finished my assignment and took two NyQuil pills to knock me out and went to sleep. I think those pills made me hallucinate at nighttime.

At some point in the night, I kept getting text messages. And later, my alarm kept going off. And after a while, it just felt like there was a constant message alert and alarm noise going off in my head, from ear to ear. My roommate's girlfriend, at one point in time, told me to turn my alarm off, but my motor skills were like so horrible that I couldn't do anything in bed. Wow, drugs do screw you up. Maybe that's why I don't do them unless I want to knock myself out for the night... which err, happens like twice a year, maybe.

I think I'm bored of writing in here at the moment. I'll update sometime later. I'm so hungry right now that if a pig came up to me and said "hey I'm free bacon," I'd eat him, and find all his relatives of the same blood line and eat them too, because chances are, they probably have the same gene that will make them come up to me and say "hey I'm free bacon."

I'm listening to Kanye West - Through the Wire
I'm feeling unsatisfied
I'm constantly saying masshat

there were seven wonders of the ancient world.

The day you were born, you were born free. That is your privilege.

The first wonder of the ancient world was the Great Pyramid at Giza. Typically, pyramids were used as tombs for pharaohs and were built in such a way that the pharaoh could ascend to the sky and the heavens. That's what the pyramid symbolizes; a slow, step-by-step ascension.

People ascend step-by-step everyday. We refer to this as growing up. And what a procedure this is.

To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real.

The magnificent Hanging Gardens of Babylon were gardens and fruits and flowers that were hanging (obviously) over the palace at Babylon. One of the Babylonian rulers built them to please his wife. It's natural that people are pleased by beauty.

One of the main tasks in life is finding a mate, someone who respects you and someone that you can spend the rest of your life with. It may takes years and years to find that person... the person that you think fits you perfectly, and carries the beauty that pleases you. And by being compatible with you, they become more and more beautiful. People are helpless to beauty; when it's theirs, they'll be in heaven and won't want to leave. That... that is the power of love.

It's all been saved with the exception for the right parts. When will we be new skin?

The third wonder of the ancient world chronologically is the Statue of Zeus at Olympia. Zeus was the centerpiece of the Greek Pantheon, and all the Greeks would come to the statue and pray before the infamous Olympics. Those atheletes or warriors or whatever the hell you want to call them believed in a spirit that was renewed whenever they prayed. Their spirit helped them understand their life and to cope with their surroundings.

In our society, this is quite apparent. Many, many people practice a religion or some sort of spiritual activity. It's natural for one to think about why he or she is here on this planet doing whatever he or she is doing. And the way that person thinks about it dictates much of what he or she does. You can't understand a person until you understand what they believe in.

Experience the warmth before you grow old.

The most overlooked wonder of the ancient world is the Temple of Artemis at Ephesus. It's nothing special, really. It just was just a beautiful structure that housed the god of hunting, wild nature and fertility. Basically, the god of fun. Entertainment, in any form, is what makes this world go round.

Entertainment can come in many forms, like video games or music or sports or reading. These forms of entertainment don't even come close to time spent with a significant other. It doesn't even matter what a couple does... they just seem to have fun. That's what it's all about... it's a great thing.

Society must let the artist go [and] wander off into the nebula.

A very dark wonder of the world was the Mausoleum at Halicarnassus. A stench of death is around it, and it could only symbolize one thing: death. And, uh, I really don't want to talk about that.

The Colossus at Rhodes was one freakin' enormous object. It stood uncontested over the harbor at Rhodes. The people had a protector of their island and a symbol of power.

The strive for power is what makes this world the way it is. So many people want power over others, and that's why we fight. Power is by no means ephemeral; it will be sought after forever, as it is an aspect of humanity.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there.

Sure, the Lighthouse of Alexandria helped ships into harbor. But it also looked out... far ahead... and explored.

There is so much out there. Don't miss your chance to see the beauty this world has to offer.

Isn't it ironic that the Hanging Gardens may not have existed and that Greek poets just wrote about it to glorify the Babylonian Empire? Is it ironic that some people never find the perfect beauty in their life?

Isn't it ironic that the Colossus collapsed because its knee was very weak and couldn't hold up the structure when an earthquake hit? Is it ironic that people tend to have a flaw in them that keeps them from getting what they want over and over again... or in some cases brings them to their downfall?

Isn't it ironic that the only surviving ancient wonder is the oldest and plainest, the Great Pyramid? Is it ironic that the people that usually are the most stable are the plain people?

Yes, yes, yes and yes, yes, and uh, yes.

I just related the Seven Ancient Wonders of the World to life. Who the hell does something like this at eight in the morning after staying up all night? Me. That's who. I'm an idiot for doing it too.

I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free.

...yeah.

I'm listening to Bush - Machinehead
I'm feeling foolish
I'm constantly saying doubloon

among the stars.

This world is a joke when out of love. "Leave me be, " he said, "leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad, little world."

Since I was a kid, I've loved the stars. Like every little child, I wanted to be an astronaut and see the plethora of things that seem so far away when you're staring up at the sky. But maybe I never phased out of the astronaut deal... or the stars and space deal. I'm infatuated with the stars.

There's something about how they can be so far away and represent so much. For example, when a star streaks across the sky, it symbolizes a wish of someone that watched it. Or, when stargazing, the stars are sometimes referred to as different shapes, all from a person's imagination. But maybe those stars symbolize something else too.

I've heard that some people think the stars represent people that they've lost or people they've left behind. And some days the star they always look at looks brighter, and they know the person they are thinking of is thinking of them. Maybe as long as someone has a star to look at, they'll never forget what's important to them, and never give up what they once cherished before they left it. Their wish can always come true, because their star is always shining.

You should be careful what you wish for, 'cause all of what amounts becomes you.

One of these days, I'm going to go to the stars. I'll shine brightly, and burn to my every last bit. And at some point in time, my life will flash in front of my eyes, and someone will look up and see a shooting star and wish for good intentions. They will know not to give up on this world. They will know that there is so much to love on this earth and they will know that love is the only way to save ourselves.

Please end this before this ends us.

Save humanity.

I'm listening to nothing
I'm feeling awake
I'm constantly saying loopy

so, hmm, a little reflection.

I guess after all that was said after the whole MTV thing, I think the best comment that was left was from my brother. I mean, sure, it's nice to hear random things from people I don't know, but it's always nice to hear something from someone you do know. I also think it was funny that someone posted a hate response on the forum. I miss that, especially when right after the Scandal happened, there were a bunch of people, namely one, that I shall keep unidentified, that showed how incredibly stupid he was by unintelligibly arguing against us in the Scandal. And oh yeah, going up to my friend's dad and telling him how stupid his daughter is. Very smart, moron.

You know, a lot of people criticize the Scandal and all the people involved, including the teachers, the parents and the kids, and I'll be kinda arrogant about the whole situation because I don't like someone telling me what I did wrong in the Scandal. That is because 99.9% of the time, what they've told me is not what I did wrong, but every reason I should have done what I've done. There was something that I did wrong during that period of time, and I know what it is, and I'll never argue against that if someone brings it up. But it's funny, no one does, and everyone just seems to forget or not think about it. And I'm pretty sure every party by this time knows what they did wrong as well, and that's why, for a mutual agreement of never getting at each other's throats (because mind you, this was a pretty stupid thing in all due respect) we should just sit and drink some tea and relax. Metaphorically of course.

Now after ranting a bit about the Scandal thingy, I have other things to say here. I'd have to say that I have quite a few friends across the nation now, and I feel like taking a road trip across the country to meet all these random people that have IMed me. In fact, I think that would be pretty cool; I've always wanted to have a cross-country road trip.

Oh yeah, this week has just been weird. I'm gonna have to do something about what's going on, or something.

*Note: Mr. Barnes was probably the coolest teacher ever based on the fact that he taught me to say "or something" after every irrelevant thing I said. This is a reminder for everyone to not imitate something that you think is funny, because then you'll start using it in your speech.*

I'm listening to chirping birds
I'm feeling kooky
I'm constantly saying jugular

i have like a bunch of random people IMing me right now.

Wow. My episode got showed on MTV not too long ago and like 50 random people started posting on my forum. I gave them my screen name and a whole bunch of people like sent me messages and stuff. This is fun. I love talking to all these random people. I guess I know what it's like to be a celebrity... an Internet celebrity.

So of all the random people that have IMed me, there are only about three that stand out to even mention here. One wants to start a business with me, the other is a girl in junior high in Ohio, and the other a seventeen year old from Wisconsin. Yeah, so we started a chatroom and stuff, it's weird.

If I were the people talking to me, I'd probably act sort of the same way, because they're talking to someone on TV. I mean, how often do you do that. To most people, the people on TV aren't real, so I mean, talking to anyone that was just on TV is probably fairly exciting. Especially if they want to talk back to you.

Anyway, there are more things that I wanted to talk about today, other than that whole MTV thingy. See, seven years ago today, my mom moved out from our house. Way back in the day, I used to always remember this day, and think about how much that has changed my life and all that kinda stuff. But what's funny, is all that's not apparent any more, mainly because my mother moved back and all that good stuff. I bet my brother doesn't even remember when all this stuff happened, because he was out of our cracked household at that time... hah. I guess it goes to show it really wasn't a huge deal in my life and there were quite a lot of things that have affected me more. Hm.

I made this entry short because someone that I just met wanted to read it before she went to sleep. Wow, I have many random friends all over the United States.

I'm listening to Incubus - Southern Girl
I'm feeling like a celebrity
I'm constantly saying MTV